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  • Oct. 15th, 2009 at 4:42 PM

One of my crazy acquaintances asked me if I have a blog. I said, I used to. It's inactive now.

"What's it about?" he asked.
"Nothing specific. Mostly nonsense," I replied.

I was about to send him the URL but I figured, maybe I should go check it out myself and make sure it's "safe". I mean, this guy barely knows me. Might as well not have him know bullshit and emo stuff about my life. I CAN get a little emo. Okay, fine. I can get a LOT emo. :| But then, since I'm already here... might as well write something... I haven't written a decent entry in... well, months.

Haven't really gotten around to write here anymore because... as said in my previous entry dated December 31, 2008:

"I wasn't able to write as much this year because, well, there are a million better things to do than blog, say, Playstation, Facebook, sleeping, and the occasional getting drunk and/or hooring around. So there."

Well, I didn't do much Playstation and hooring around. PSP, yes. And then there's work. And work. And work. Then I quit. I quit Unilever last June. The pay was okay... but the workload is just... yeah. Well to be honest, I can handle the workload. I'm actually good at what I do. It's just me. I get bored too often, too soon. And I know that if I transfer to another company, even as a graphic designer, I will most probably get bored after a year.

So I tried doing freelance. It's fun... if you don't have to worry about money. I do have clients... but money was coming in slow. And then there's the Australia trip... which totally made a huge dent on my savings. But I figured, it's just money. I can always earn it back. Going to Australia, seeing one of my oldest friends get married, meeting really wonderful people, hopping on to a train to God-knows-where... priceless. I absolutely have no regrets.

After the gossamer dream that is my Sydney trip, I came back to Manila, worrying where on earth will I get money to pay my bills. Sure, I get a little something from the family business every month... but I don't want to be dependent on that. I want to make my own money, prove that I can make it on my own. I chose to quit my job. I chose to do freelance. I HAVE TO MAKE IT WORK. But projects were scarce or maybe I'm just not selling myself enough (don't get any ideas). To make matters worse, the inspiration wasn't there. My output was crap.

I tried busying myself with other things. Maybe if I do something different, say, clean my room rather than sit in the study or look at other people's designs for inspiration, maybe, just maybe, I'll have that creative spark again. So I did clean my room... And then typhoon Ondoy came. Suddenly I have stuff to donate. Suddenly, I am out there collecting donations, sorting and packing clothes, loading repacked goods onto crates. It was great. It was very rewarding. It made me feel like I'm actually doing something. It didn't give me that creative spark but at least I was able to help people. :|

Okay, I'm not really making sense now. Coherence Fail. I'm not a writer so sue me. *rolls eyes* I'm basically just summarizing what the hell I've been doing. So anyway, this is a totally different story but I'm back in the family business. Yeah, that one where I used to work four years ago but quit because I got bored and felt like I wasn't really doing anything. I figured it's about time to learn the ropes. I should stop kidding myself and just face the fact that I am going to end up here anyway. It's not a bad thing or anything... I mean, I'll never earn as much money if I stay as an employee. The odds of being a successful and famous graphic designer isn't really in my favor. Besides, I can still do freelance on the side. Double income, always a good thing. I also thought that I wouldn't want to waste my mom's efforts. It took a lot to put up this company and it took much, much more for it to sustain itself for six years. It would be a shame not to continue it. We are living comfortably because of it. I'm not saying we're rolling dough, because we're not. We are just luckier than most and we are grateful. This is like a free pass to a comfortable future. Who wouldn't want that? Some people can only dream to have their own businesses. Others are struggling starting up theirs. THIS business is waiting for ME. Who am I to refuse? I think it's the most practical and logical thing to do -- learn the ropes then manage it someday. I just really hope I can do this. I don't think anybody can ever be ready for this. I sorta just jumped in and hopefully learn to swim. There's a huge room for improvement but I'm taking it slow. Baby steps and I'll get there. I'll probably go emo over this in another post (and explain how the hell I got here. Heh). Not today though. Meh.

Oh and ironically, just when I was getting used to the corporate world again, freelance graphic design projects started pouring in. What. The. Hell. :|


scrabble fun

  • Jun. 30th, 2009 at 11:31 PM

bitter apples and bitter wines

  • Jun. 25th, 2009 at 8:40 AM

My mom sent me this e-mail yesterday:

Apples and Wine

Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they sometimes take the apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. The apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.

Now men... men are like fine wine. They begin as grapes, and it's up to the women to stomp the shit out of them until they turn into something acceptable to have dinner with.

I had to reply of course:

The one who wrote that is at the top of the tree. And she thinks there's nothing wrong with her. She says it to herself all the time so she won't feel bad about herself. When in reality, nobody really loves her. She is waiting for nothing.
I know I should just let it go and treat it the same way I do with e-mail forwards. But. I. Simply. Can't. The "right man", should it exist, does not just come along. Besides, that kinda negates the last sentence, which presupposes that women have to do SOMETHING to turn men acceptable. Bah. Ang aga aga. Stupidassrelationshipcrap.


  • Mar. 12th, 2009 at 4:06 PM
Sometimes I just want to withdraw from everything. :|


holy eff!

  • Feb. 4th, 2009 at 10:24 PM

Electronic Arts said on Tuesday that The Sims 3, the third full iteration of one of the most successful video game franchises of all time, will hit store shelves on June 2.

you learn something new everyday

  • Jan. 29th, 2009 at 8:44 AM
"Todate" is not a word.



  • Jan. 5th, 2009 at 9:23 PM
Behold, my future according to Chinese Astrology!

The Pig of Chinese Astrology are famous for their diplomacy and sweet nature.

Pigs are simply possessed of a truly luxurious nature, one that delights in finery and riches.

Socially, this Sign believes in the best qualities of mankind and certainly doesn't consider itself to be superior (Which totally does not coincide with my "Leo" nature...).
Pigs also care a great deal about friends and family and work hard to keep everyone in their life happy. Helping others is a true pleasure for the Pig, who feels best when everyone else is smiling.Pigs are so magnanimous they can appear almost saintly
(*insert evil laugh here*); this can lead some less than-well- intentioned souls to stomp all over this Sign, and the bad news is, the Pig will take the blows! Pigs make great companions in part because of their refusal to see the more negative or base qualities in a partner (Was I really born in the right year??? This doesn't sound like me...), but that rose-colored view can lead to this Sign's allowing itself to be taken advantage of.

However, Pigs can be quite venomous in response to being crossed by a lover, friend or business partner
(Oh HELL yes. *wants desperately to say more but then decides not to*).

Pigs are highly intelligent creatures, forever studying, playing and probing in their quest for greater knowledge. They can be misinterpreted as being lazy, however, due to their love of reveling in the good stuff
(See? I'm not lazy... I'm just "reveling in the good stuff"!);

Domestically, Pigs tend to make wonderful life partners due to their hearts of gold and their love of family
(SOCCER MOM!). Even so, Pigs can be rather exclusive, choosing to spend time with those who will appreciate them most and ignore the rest of the populace.

Pigs would do well to realize that there's more to life than being needed. When they open up their world to a diverse group of people, they will truly bloom.

Sauce: http://www.findyourfate.com/chineseastro/pig.htm

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