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"What's it about?" he asked.
"Nothing specific. Mostly nonsense," I replied.
I was about to send him the URL but I figured, maybe I should go check it out myself and make sure it's "safe". I mean, this guy barely knows me. Might as well not have him know bullshit and emo stuff about my life. I CAN get a little emo. Okay, fine. I can get a LOT emo. :| But then, since I'm already here... might as well write something... I haven't written a decent entry in... well, months.
Haven't really gotten around to write here anymore because... as said in my previous entry dated December 31, 2008:
"I wasn't able to write as much this year because, well, there are a million better things to do than blog, say, Playstation, Facebook, sleeping, and the occasional getting drunk and/or hooring around. So there."
Well, I didn't do much Playstation and hooring around. PSP, yes. And then there's work. And work. And work. Then I quit. I quit Unilever last June. The pay was okay... but the workload is just... yeah. Well to be honest, I can handle the workload. I'm actually good at what I do. It's just me. I get bored too often, too soon. And I know that if I transfer to another company, even as a graphic designer, I will most probably get bored after a year.
So I tried doing freelance. It's fun... if you don't have to worry about money. I do have clients... but money was coming in slow. And then there's the Australia trip... which totally made a huge dent on my savings. But I figured, it's just money. I can always earn it back. Going to Australia, seeing one of my oldest friends get married, meeting really wonderful people, hopping on to a train to God-knows-where... priceless. I absolutely have no regrets.
After the gossamer dream that is my Sydney trip, I came back to Manila, worrying where on earth will I get money to pay my bills. Sure, I get a little something from the family business every month... but I don't want to be dependent on that. I want to make my own money, prove that I can make it on my own. I chose to quit my job. I chose to do freelance. I HAVE TO MAKE IT WORK. But projects were scarce or maybe I'm just not selling myself enough (don't get any ideas). To make matters worse, the inspiration wasn't there. My output was crap.
I tried busying myself with other things. Maybe if I do something different, say, clean my room rather than sit in the study or look at other people's designs for inspiration, maybe, just maybe, I'll have that creative spark again. So I did clean my room... And then typhoon Ondoy came. Suddenly I have stuff to donate. Suddenly, I am out there collecting donations, sorting and packing clothes, loading repacked goods onto crates. It was great. It was very rewarding. It made me feel like I'm actually doing something. It didn't give me that creative spark but at least I was able to help people. :|
Okay, I'm not really making sense now. Coherence Fail. I'm not a writer so sue me. *rolls eyes* I'm basically just summarizing what the hell I've been doing. So anyway, this is a totally different story but I'm back in the family business. Yeah, that one where I used to work four years ago but quit because I got bored and felt like I wasn't really doing anything. I figured it's about time to learn the ropes. I should stop kidding myself and just face the fact that I am going to end up here anyway. It's not a bad thing or anything... I mean, I'll never earn as much money if I stay as an employee. The odds of being a successful and famous graphic designer isn't really in my favor. Besides, I can still do freelance on the side. Double income, always a good thing. I also thought that I wouldn't want to waste my mom's efforts. It took a lot to put up this company and it took much, much more for it to sustain itself for six years. It would be a shame not to continue it. We are living comfortably because of it. I'm not saying we're rolling dough, because we're not. We are just luckier than most and we are grateful. This is like a free pass to a comfortable future. Who wouldn't want that? Some people can only dream to have their own businesses. Others are struggling starting up theirs. THIS business is waiting for ME. Who am I to refuse? I think it's the most practical and logical thing to do -- learn the ropes then manage it someday. I just really hope I can do this. I don't think anybody can ever be ready for this. I sorta just jumped in and hopefully learn to swim. There's a huge room for improvement but I'm taking it slow. Baby steps and I'll get there. I'll probably go emo over this in another post (and explain how the hell I got here. Heh). Not today though. Meh.
Oh and ironically, just when I was getting used to the corporate world again, freelance graphic design projects started pouring in. What. The. Hell. :|
- Location:Office
- Mood:
meh
- Music:Chris Brown - Picture Perfect
Apples and Wine
Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they sometimes take the apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. The apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.
Now men... men are like fine wine. They begin as grapes, and it's up to the women to stomp the shit out of them until they turn into something acceptable to have dinner with.
Women are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. Most men don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they sometimes take the apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. The apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right man to come along, the one who is brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.
Now men... men are like fine wine. They begin as grapes, and it's up to the women to stomp the shit out of them until they turn into something acceptable to have dinner with.
I had to reply of course:
The one who wrote that is at the top of the tree. And she thinks there's nothing wrong with her. She says it to herself all the time so she won't feel bad about herself. When in reality, nobody really loves her. She is waiting for nothing.
- Mood:
annoyed
Electronic Arts said on Tuesday that The Sims 3, the third full iteration of one of the most successful video game franchises of all time, will hit store shelves on June 2.
The Pig of Chinese Astrology are famous for their diplomacy and sweet nature.
Pigs are simply possessed of a truly luxurious nature, one that delights in finery and riches.
Socially, this Sign believes in the best qualities of mankind and certainly doesn't consider itself to be superior (Which totally does not coincide with my "Leo" nature...).
Pigs also care a great deal about friends and family and work hard to keep everyone in their life happy. Helping others is a true pleasure for the Pig, who feels best when everyone else is smiling.Pigs are so magnanimous they can appear almost saintly (*insert evil laugh here*); this can lead some less than-well- intentioned souls to stomp all over this Sign, and the bad news is, the Pig will take the blows! Pigs make great companions in part because of their refusal to see the more negative or base qualities in a partner (Was I really born in the right year??? This doesn't sound like me...), but that rose-colored view can lead to this Sign's allowing itself to be taken advantage of.
However, Pigs can be quite venomous in response to being crossed by a lover, friend or business partner (Oh HELL yes. *wants desperately to say more but then decides not to*).
Pigs are highly intelligent creatures, forever studying, playing and probing in their quest for greater knowledge. They can be misinterpreted as being lazy, however, due to their love of reveling in the good stuff (See? I'm not lazy... I'm just "reveling in the good stuff"!);
Domestically, Pigs tend to make wonderful life partners due to their hearts of gold and their love of family (SOCCER MOM!). Even so, Pigs can be rather exclusive, choosing to spend time with those who will appreciate them most and ignore the rest of the populace.
Pigs would do well to realize that there's more to life than being needed. When they open up their world to a diverse group of people, they will truly bloom.
Sauce: http://www.findyourfate.com/chineseastro/p
( more heresy under the cut! )
- Location:Bedroom
- Mood: lazy
2008 actually went by pretty fast. I almost didn't notice it. My life's a bit monotonous and boring this year -- sucky job but surviving anyway, less badminton because the people there aren't fun anymore, love life's pretty much dead... as always, I stopped going to the zoo by Q3, I didn't even try to hone my creative skills and slept more than I should. :| Hopefully next year I can change all that and actually make an effort to do something. Anything. Maybe if I try to be more proactive about my plans, then maybe, just maybe, I'll get somewhere by the time I turn 27. :|
Speaking of age, God, I can't believe I'm turning 26 next year already. And my life is still going nowherezzz. I feel like I'm 21. :| Uh oh. I should be doing something with my life already. I'm practically in my "mid-twenties". Eew. :|
Anyway, I figured I should post a decent (I tried) year-end entry, not just those questionnaires I did last time. I wasn't able to write as much this year because, well, there are a million better things to do than blog, say, Playstation, Facebook, sleeping, and the occasional getting drunk and/or hooring around. So there.
Happy new year, everyone! Hope you guys will be luckier than I am.
No, not really.
- Location:Bedroom
- Location:Bedroom
- Music:Britney Spears - Toxic :D
Year after year, the celebration became simpler than the last -- less food, less presents, less time. We used to stay up till around 2 - 3 AM. We used to spend time together while waiting for Christmas Eve. Recently, we've been cheating by squeezing in naps while waiting for midnight to come. Noche Buena itself became less festive. We'd still have hot chocolate, the 80s Christmas songs (alternating with Disney and Mariah Carey now, in fairness), and a few laughs but it wasn't the same. We'd open our presents, have a few pictures, take our stuff then go back to our rooms.
But it's probably just us getting old. Every year, I feel less and less Christmas-y during the holiday season. Maybe reality is catching up to me. Hell, I only started shopping for gifts two days ago. And I didn't go all out, not in this state of recession, just my family, the helps, a couple of godchildren (IKR), and my best friend. The "holiday spirit" was so absent that I didn't even want to share how my 24th of December went. :| This year, I spent the evening crappily wrapping the presents I bought. Nagmamadali na.
Our yearly Christmas tradition was no more. Since Ate took that graveyard shift job (which she enjoys, btw), Noche Buena was moved 12 hours forward -- Christmas lunch. :) Christmas Eve became like any other evening -- my brother and I asleep in our rooms/surfing the internet, my mom playing PC games.
I guess it's not so bad. I don't really mind new traditions replacing the old ones. Today, we'll be hearing Mass together, not that we don't do it every Sunday... but we don't really do Christmas Masses. This year, my dad and his wife might come over. It's been years since he spent the holidays with us. Then later we might go somewhere to go into hiding from our relatives. ;D Hahaha
I still have 30 minutes left before we have to leave for Church and I have yet to get up from bed. We'll see how this day would turn out.
EDITED at 1:55 PM:
My dad and his wife didn't come over. That woman's got issues. Meh.
- Location:Bedroom
- Mood: lazy
- Music:You hear that? It's the winds of change...
IF you get more than 21 you’re paranoid.
If you get 11-20 then u are normal.
If you get 10 or less you’re fearless.
People who don’t have any,are full of sh*t!
I Fear…
[x] the dark
[x] staying single forever
[ ] being a parent
[x] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] black cats
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[x] spiders (big ones)
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[x] deep water
[ ] lakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[x] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[x] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] mice/rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[x] death
[ ] heaven
[x] being robbed
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[x] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases
[x] snakes
[x] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[x] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone
[x] becoming blind
[x] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up
[ ] monsters under my bed
[x] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[ ] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs if they were alive
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speeds
[ ] throwing up
[x] falling in love (more like "trusting...")
19 points! WOOHOO! I'm normal! :D
'Twilight' Director Won't Return for Sequel
"Twilight" director Catherine Hardwicke won't be back for "New Moon," the sequel to the hit teen vampire romance.
Summit Entertainment, which released "Twilight" last month, says the scheduled release of "New Moon" in late 2009 or early 2010 conflicts with Hardwicke's. The film, based on the second book in Stephenie Meyer's series, continues to follow the forbidden relationship between vampire Edward Cullen and high schooler Bella Swan.
Hardwicke, whose previous films include "Thirteen" and "Lords of Dogtown," had the highest opening ever for a female director when "Twilight" made nearly $70 million in its first weekend. It's grossed over $138 million in three weeks.
From Yahoo! News
They should get Alfonso Cuaron.
AND... Team James. :D
Body Type: Standard
Gender: Female
Age: 25
Height: 5 ft. 1.5 in.
Weight: 96.8 lbs. (I lost 0.2 lbs.)
Body Mass Index: 18.0
BMR (dunno what the hell this is): 4668 kJ, 1116 kcal
Impedance (eyng?): 713 (insert omega symbol here)
Fat%: 23.3% (from 23.7!)
Fat Mass: 22.6 lbs. (from 23.0 lbs.)
FFM (dunno what this is): 74.2 lbs.
Total Body Water: 54.4 lbs.
Desirable Range:
Fat %: 17-24%
Fat Mass: 15 - 23 lbs.
Target Body Fat % is: 20%
Predicted weight: 92.8 lbs.
Predicted fat mass: 18.6 lbs.
Fat to lose: 4.0 lbs.
To follow na lang 'yung graph at tinatamad na ko.
